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November 2014

Day 203– October 29, 2014

Am I happy? I don’t know. Sometimes I am overwhelmed, frantic, and stuffed by all the learning, projects, and uncertainly. Other times – often while building – I glide along a flow state. In between, I oscillate between the rails of overstimulated and bored. I experience happiness rarely in the …

Day 202– October 28, 2014

I started late in life. While high school classmates convened covertly for beer and dates, I spent weekend nights at home lying on my bed, staring at the ceiling. I had neither many friends nor a car to visit them. Instead, I busied myself alone with miniature-figure painting and computer-game …

Day 201– October 27, 2014

It is Monday. I struggle to get out of bed. I struggle for food, struggle for clarity, struggle for self-worth. The house grows colder on. I’m tired. I’m tired of writing a pithy essay every morning. I’m tired of learning and building and planning. I’m tired of justifying my hours …

Day 200– October 26, 2014

Two hundred days of no work. Well not “job” work, but I have been working hard weekdays and even weekends. I had best enjoy the remaining 150-odd days of my planned 365-days away. Dr. Rick hosts my favorite annual San Franciscan event at his Italian villa and farmhouse in Bernal …

Day 199– October 25, 2014

As I wind down from my travels and projects, I feel pulled in many directions. My future looks murky, unusual for an inveterate (invertebrate!) planner like myself. Perhaps I should look for a biotech job. I could resume bench science, synthesize small molecules or monomers, and manage a couple people. …

Day 197 – October 23, 2014

At home, I cut plastic sheets, solder connections, and staple wires. I’m making a triangular screen. Friend Jacob got me into a Creative Coding class at Gray Area. This intensive class meets three times each week: Tu-Th 6-9pm and Sa 12-4pm. I’m learning HTML, CSS, Javascript, Processing, and more ways …